The last 2 weeks were filled with emotions. I have had mood swings (happy to sad, laughing to crying, smiling to screaming) throughout the pregnancy, but it has gotten a little extreme. Are we ready? Can I do this? I am filled with uncertainty and stress. I don’t know what to expect and I am rather afraid to have to take care of another (hopefully tiny) human! Luckily, I have an amazing support system that reassure me I can. For that, I am thankful.
I made Fizz take 8 pictures this morning, this was the best. yikes.
New symptoms: ankle/lower calf swelling, random (but small) dark marks on my body, MASSIVE increase in Braxton Hicks contractions.
Baby progress: I went to my 38 week appointment yesterday. I am progressing as normal (currently 2 cm dilated and 75% effaced). Baby is still head down (ass in one set of ribs and feet in the other, same as the last 4 months).
Weight: At my 37 week appointment, I was up exactly 40 lbs. At my appointment yesterday, I was down 3 lbs bringing my total weight gain (so far) to 37 lbs.
Random things: same weekly dream that I deliver the baby and it is actually a BOY (what the hell is that).
Happy things: No stretch marks! We toured the hospital and I packed my hospital bag (and picking out a really cute outfit for the baby to come home). Both made me feel SO much better and more prepared.
Consuming my thoughts: I am dying to know what she looks like and when she will arrive. I am also thinking about cloth diapering. How? When? What and how much do I buy?
Dreaming of: Holding the baby, margaritas, having visible ab muscles, running and teaching spin again!!!!
Needs: One last manicure and pedicure (I can’t reach my own toes without passing out) and to clean my house. My mom is coming up on Saturday to help me clean my house one last time.
Despite my immense feelings of insecurity, things are going well at the end. I genuinely hope the baby comes early and doesn’t ruin my vagina on the way out. In the meantime, I press on my belly a few times a day and say “COME OUT NOW” – I’ll let you guys know how that works out.
Non-baby happy things:
Chipotle finally got sofritas (tofu) topping in NJ and it is DELICIOUS!
Lily is going to be ONE very soon. I made her a crown for her birthday party It is so fun to watch her develop such an amazing personality. She is so responsive and says cute words and knows what is going on around her and what she wants. I am so proud to be her aunt!
Questions: Has anyone used cloth diapers and can give me a some advice or guidance?